Had enough,
Depression is a terrible monster to have to
fight, sapping your physical and mental strength while weighing heavily on your
emotions. Some of us do so well at covering the damage, sealing the demon
inside, showing no one. Expending what energy we have to make others believe we
are what we are not. Struggling mightily to accomplish the world’s expectations
while leaving less and less to help slay the dragon inside. Simple things
become your Everest, your rock to push up the hill only to find another much
larger and steeper on the other side. There is no place to rest, no turn to
make, truly caught between the rock and a hard place.
Enough of the false
sun and its imitation warmth,
Enough of the frigid
breezes reaching to the bone,
Enough of the
failing energy and aches and pains,
Enough of the nightmare
nights and empty days,
Enough of clinging
to small victories trying to evade the collapse,
Enough of building
the façade in the morning to let it crumble each night,
Enough of sugar
coated smiles and “hi how are you”s,
Enough of the ever
expanding list of things never to be done,
Enough of falling
further and further from the light,
Enough of knowing
better yet indulging in the status quo,
Enough of filling
the trash can with empties and butts and pizza boxes,
Had enough…
